Getting started!

So this is probably my 100th attempt at weight loss since my 2nd child in 2002. I'm sick of these fat thoughts consuming every part of me day in and day out. I just want to be healthy and look good and most important, be able to keep up with my kids. My last attempt started off pretty well. My husband and I found a method that we thought was working well for us.... (gym 2 hrs a day, tuna, salads, water, chicken, fish, etc.) until I passed out in the gym. Me trying to work out at his speed was not healthy for me and passing out in the gym, not to mention no one helping me, was pretty scary and we haven't been back ever since. That was August of 2010 and I pretty much went back to unhealthy eating =/ this is probably the most difficult thing for me to do because food is like a drug to me. Sometimes I feel like I'm in survival mode but I want to live again. I'm telling you this journey is going to be hell and I really feel bad for whoever is in my path in the process..... Sorry in advance Greg lol... So I urge anyone who sees me with a burger, steak, or a rack of Jack Daniels Baby Back Ribs I give you permission to slap me silly and throw it away.... Not eat.... THROW AWAY!!!!! Lol I need all the help and support I can get. The sooner the better that way you don't see oopa loopa every time you look at me =)